yes, it was pretty much everything that anyone could want. by the water, sauna hot, alcohol running through veins and bones. friends, oh, the friends. barbecue exploding, on the roof with fear and love. extravagant, yet not dramatic. i guess i sometimes miss the drama. the touch of a mistake or a let-down. i know them so well. i embrace them always. but maybe quiet happiness is something i should get to know better. explore. from drama to silence. the complete trip. this is phase IV. i don't want to be scared.