Sunday, May 31, 2009


Oh my, it took me nearly 23 years to experience the ultimate party. It was held at my place last night. I can't even describe the love I felt both physically and emotionally. It was the most beautiful heartache ever.

We hugged.

We drank.

We played.

We laughed.

We opened up to each other.

We played for the masses too.

We even played with the masses.

We kissed.

We hugged some more.

And maybe we even had our low moments when we thought about life.

Friday, May 29, 2009

NOVIA - the end of another era

along with these two lovely freaks!

(photo by the one and only tof)

Thursday, May 21, 2009

LAFO - the end of an era

There's not a word, nor a picture that could sum up the past couple of days, the last days, at Lappfjärds folkhögskola. There's so much love, so much sadness. I'm equally confused and certain. There are people I will always remember, and some that I won't have to because they're already a part of my everyday life.

Lafo is one kind of home, and always will be ours. It's the end of an era. But even as it ends I know it will last forever. It's love.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

nostalgia, the known and the unknown

i am reading words and sentences that made sense way back. some of them still hold up. the don't touch me:s and the let go:s. some things come back from time to time while some never disappear. some are lost forever. for better or for worse.

whatever's new in my life seems easier to handle than before, when everything was a roller coaster and i had no safety belt on. i seem more prepared and at the same time i care less. it's not that i don't feel anything - oh, i feel plenty. it's just that there's a different kind of up-side to everything. and if there's not, i make one up.

there are some butterflies and some pink exclamation marks. and the left side of my brain can't get the best of me. not anymore. i am proud, i am brave, i am stupid. i like this me better.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

for now, this is where we're at.

Sunday, May 10, 2009


friends of mine live at madison yesterday. see them live in tampere this friday at emergenza!

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

still kissing cowboys

spring hit me, and it hit me hard. right now i seem almost too carefree for my own good considering i have no job, no money, and really nothing going for me. but that's not true, really. i have jobs, they don't pay much, but i'm needed sometimes. i have money, at least enough to pay the rent and get some food in me (pasta and pesto that is). and i have a lot of things going for me. like my education, my incredible talent for turning just about anything into a dirty joke, and that new dress that made me get some looks tonight. so you wanna be my friend, so you wanna be my lover? with you i must admit it can't be one without the other. i sing along to janis and big brother and the holding company and i sing loudly. maybe you'll hear me and we'll ride off into the sunset and in those orange flames i'll make you squirm.