past/passed lives

this week i confirmed my belief in the soul, the brain, the paranormal and the presence of someone. i got a lot of other things confirmed too. i guess that makes this week a good week, even though i'm coughing my lungs out.

for everyone asking: no, i don't have a job. i haven't heard about any job offers. i'm not really looking for a job. i have no interest in working this summer.
i freelance. i do okay. i manage. for the first time ever i don't know what will happen next. it's so uncertain, but a certain fact. it actually keeps me calm. the possibilities are endless, and i'm not looking into any of them at the moment.
i am writing, playing, drinking, fucking, living, kissing, listening, sleeping, coughing, and spending time with those who matter. it's not a bad life, this hippie life. i do okay. i manage.

i don't want this life to pass me by, i just won't let it. working 9 to 5 isn't my thing. starting a family, having children, cats, dogs and picket fences isn't my thing. this is. this is my thing. i do okay. i manage. i love.

PROPAGANDA

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THE GREAT MIDSUMMER EXTRAVAGANZA

yes, it was pretty much everything that anyone could want. by the water, sauna hot, alcohol running through veins and bones. friends, oh, the friends. barbecue exploding, on the roof with fear and love. extravagant, yet not dramatic. i guess i sometimes miss the drama. the touch of a mistake or a let-down. i know them so well. i embrace them always. but maybe quiet happiness is something i should get to know better. explore. from drama to silence. the complete trip. this is phase IV. i don't want to be scared.

//a.

things happen

these past few days have been filled with insights. almost too many to handle. i'm gonna write them down and i'm gonna try to take them all in. you do the same.



you have to be open for love in which ever form it's given.


and when things happen, like they always do, don't be afraid to live in the NOW, and then to leave it there. it can be a bubble in time that have no negative effect on the past, the present or the future. carry the insanity of the moment with you as a reminder of living right here and now is a good thing. so, regrets aren't always mistakes. true. but regret is still a negative feeling, very useless in the end. take that bubble and:

keep it somewhere just beyond the borders of reality, some place close enough to insanity to make it pleasurable. regrets never result in progress.

i believe in love. in which ever form. and when you express love, or receive love, in which ever form - don't regret it. appreciate it. acknowledge that you're worth that love.

things happen. they really do. and it's always for the best - if you make it that way.

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