omfg

love.

now i have truly felt how it can hurt to love someone this much. i have also, finally, seen how beautiful that feeling is. not to know what to do, where to turn to, how to manage a feeling so strong that it breaks every boundary of the mind. it's a truly spiritual phenomenon. it took me 23 years and finally i know how i should live my life. even though it's hard sometimes, this is how much i have to feel and love to be one with everything around me. to love myself. i'm so humbled by the fact that someone taught me to teach myself how to truly trust that i am worthy. i owe that man everything.

i'm truly blessed to have had the chance to look into someone's eyes and see that i am truly beautiful and lovable. i hope that same someone can look into my eyes sometime soon and see just how amazing he is. i'm ready to give everything back, and fill us both to the point where we are overflowed by oneness and love.

i get what i deserve. and so do you.
the universe will hear me. the universe will see me.
and the universe will send all this love to him
whether or not i am there in physical form
to share his love for himself.

worth quoting

An Pierlé - Nobody's fault

I've done it again
Something
Forced me to
Another piece in my collection
of plays with you

I've done it again
even several times
I guess it really takes a lot of beating
before you cry

Alright, I've been blind

But nothing ever happens
Some things won't ever change
And if I'm being inconsiderate
I'm ashamed

And it's always something different
The grass is greener on the other side
I guess I've always been a dreamer
With a dirty mind

But it's nobody's fault
And if someone arranged this for me
getting his kicks out of it
It's not my fault

I've done it again
I was weak again
I guess I lost my chance of heaven
Before it came

Alright, I've been blind

If something ever happens
And I've no chance to say goodbye
This is my way to say I'm sorry
One last time

But it's nobody's fault
And if someone arranged this for me
Getting his kicks out of it
It's not my fault

And if someone arranged this for me
Getting his kicks out of it
It's not my fault
It's not my fault

the journeymen

i promote the journeymen nowadays.
these pics are from their gig at
el gringo in vasa, january 17th.
reggae love.

TRUTH

"Om man är full av kärlek ryms ingen crap."

"If you're full of love there's no room for crap."

- Mickel Sahlström
a good friend indeed <3

trip

this life is one hell of a trip.

jingle jams.

the first ride i ever fixed
for some of the journeymen.
they were no walking men,
but it might have reminded them
of a police transport in a country
long lost and forgotten.

sunrise, sunrise.

everything is love.
indeed.
even tomatoes.

bukowski

my laptop is sort of named after him. charlie is the name of my laptop. she's a tomboy, but a real poet. just like bukowski.

“You begin saving the world by saving one person at a time; all else is grandiose romanticism or politics.”

“If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose.”

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead."