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i have trouble dealing with things changing. i have trouble dealing with goodbyes.
i have trouble dealing with people, trouble dealing with lies.

now i try to write my anxiety off, try to write it all away.
i try to write myself righteous, i try to write myself to stay.

i fucked the world and it fucked me back.
i loved and grasped for air, had a heart attack.

i was touched but i can't repay what i got, not until you're dead.
i tried to love the world, i even gave it head.

see, things fall to pieces even when they're good.
things go on and away, much like they should.

but i have trouble with things changing, being my own boss.
i have trouble with the things i win, to me they're the future loss.

//A.