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i have trouble dealing with things changing. i have trouble dealing with goodbyes.
i have trouble dealing with people, trouble dealing with lies.

now i try to write my anxiety off, try to write it all away.
i try to write myself righteous, i try to write myself to stay.

i fucked the world and it fucked me back.
i loved and grasped for air, had a heart attack.

i was touched but i can't repay what i got, not until you're dead.
i tried to love the world, i even gave it head.

see, things fall to pieces even when they're good.
things go on and away, much like they should.

but i have trouble with things changing, being my own boss.
i have trouble with the things i win, to me they're the future loss.

//A.

PREMIÄR

INTRESSANT HANDLING
PREMIÄR 19/7
KL. 14.00
KINO CITY, JSTAD

BE THERE OR BE SQUARE.

jag inleder snart min sista vecka på tidningen där det ligger skelett av småfåglar på innergården. på tidningen där säkerligen ett par hundar också ligger begravda. men det har varit en bra sommar arbetsmässigt. jag har inte stressat över detta jobb, men dock andra.

jag är ganska sönder, ganska nöjd. jag är fortfarande paradoxal.

this is no longer my heart.
maybe i'll find a new one in italy.
see you after that.

young&drunk

someone told me yesternight
that friendships aren't relationships.
i think he should re-think that.

boys are stupid.

throw rocks at them.

just a place i miss.

i've been working for a week. helping out at the local newspaper which is chaos&total madness right now. when two newspapers decide to come together no one should think it's gonna be easy. ever.

on thursday i'll find out what kind of interesting music classes i can take in the fall. music history, production, styles... it will be awesome.

on saturday my sis' is playing a small acoustic gig at after eight's fabulous bazaar, an artsy fair where artsy people get together. after that i will rush off to vasa where another café is trying to open. there will be a fundraising where we will show a couple of movies made recently. it's exciting even for me, i haven't even seen the finished version of the latest creation!

and theeeen - party time! i feel i have the right to party, and i will do it with the best. nothing can stop me now. i am young!

//youngster&hoodlum

"i'm not there"

you should see that movie whether or not you know bob dylan. you should see it whether or not you believe in the power of words or music. poetry, expression, caring about the people. you should see it.

i despise the seventh rule of hiding, even though it's true:

"never create anything. it will be misinterpreted. it will chain you and follow you for the rest of your life, and it will never change."



//"sleep is for dreamers."

interesting plot

nine days of shooting and i'm out of breath. partly because i'm tired and it never seemed to end, partly because i'm sad it ended so soon. this is our first production that i really felt went well. the crew was incredibly put together even though the early mornings and late nights wanted to get to us. the cast was a talented one, outgoing, and wonderful. i hope to only work with actors and actresses like these in the future.

teamwork is something i fall so hard for. the rhytm and flow a dozen humans can come up with using cameras, lights and each other. working with t as a cinematographer was difficult at times, like always, but the result of our nagging usually turns out great. i am proud of what we've done.

this is the kind of movie that is made to influence and inspire others to make better movies. this was a parody needed to be made. i am glad i did it with you. all of you.

she said: you must be really great friends.
i shook my head, and smiled. but i guess we are.

with love, peace and film,
alex.