there's only one of us. focus.

this weekend the universe has been giving and giving and giving. it has kept my mind open and i have had all the knowledge in the world. i have known my inner goddess. i have talked and smoked and believed. and loved.

coz i knew i was not to worry. i had to remain as the goddess. i had to have strength to laugh, although it seemed as the perfect lie. but it was truth. joy, truth and love. i was the goddess.

i hope the universe continues to give. and i know it does. i am grateful.












i just wish i could hold you,


and i wish that was enough.

POLYETISK DIKT

alla trötta bankirhjärtan
drömmer om att rasera
deras monetära system.

alla trötta pastorshjärtan
drömmer om bokbål,
att förkasta den allsmäktige.

den allsmäktige som
fråntagit dem all makt.
den makt de fötts med.

kraften och tanken och friheten,
identitetsstölden.
en människas fångenskap
i trötta, trötta bankirhjärtan.

och ondskan bevisar
att hjärtan dör snabbast
på toppen.

random hippies.

something so beautiful

high on nature

an intense weekend got its perfect ending with a walk in the woods.

too many trails for my taste, but i'm glad i dare to look at what's happening above me. those are no clouds. i'm sorry, they're really not.

Hey, Hugo

Tomorrow, April 9th, we release the single Hey, Hugo. It is Univocal Music's first production, and a first sneak preview of Anna Phoenix's forthcoming album.

The two (the single also includes a duet with Sebastian Jacobson) songs featured will both be available for you to listen to tomorrow on Univocal's homepage, Anna's homepage and Anna's Myspace. Record Union are distributing the single digitally as we speak, and in a few short weeks you will find the single on most online music sites, to listen to or buy, such as Spotify, iTunes and Last.fm.

The single is released in loving memory of Hugo Nikula. It is dedicated to his family, friends and everyone else who is affected by Babylon's health care. To find out more you can contact me or maybe ask me tomorrow at After Eight when French singer-songwriter Nola performs (and Anna releases the single). Show starts at 8.

If you, like we do, hope for better mental health among young people and a development of the psychiatric care, please donate to: Hugo Nikulas Minnesfond, Aktia: 405500-1613657.

//a.

lovelovelove

i have moments when it feels like it's all just too much. i might cry a little over that fact. and over all the reasons it feels like it's all just too much. but i soon realize that i can't erase this feeling of exploding, it's part of my experience. i could not go on feeling less when i have felt this much.

i have changed my mind about a lot of things lately. for one thing: they say you can't love someone else before you love yourself. it sounds nice and true, until you think about the soul. i think the phenomenon of not loving yourself is part of the brainwashing we've gone through. it's just an idea. the soul can't do anything but love. i think that even if you sometimes can't feel that love for yourself you can always feel it when you love someone else. especially as you always love others for the same reasons you love yourself. we are all the same. it's okay to sometimes want someone there to love, because through that expression you also express your own self-worth. ah, it's a beautiful thing.

it also teaches you what to look for when you seem lost for things to love about yourself. remember what you've loved in others, and what they have said to love in you. the truth is plain to see. love is not a hard thing, really. it's just so fucking mindblowing that it sometimes scares the shit out of us.

but we have infinite power to be whoever we want to be, and do whatever we want to do. that doesn't mean we don't need, want or deserve someone to hold hands with. as a matter of fact it's a big part of that power. we are here on this earth, in this body to experience love. in all forms, the stronger the emotion the better - the more you learn - the more you love - the better it gets... you see the pattern? everything is better. all the time. if you dare to love a little and believe that we are all one but born separate to experience this life, and each other, to finally find the feeling of being One again.

i still just have an idea of how it all works. but i'm on the right track. i love and i am loved. i have done something right.