this is no longer my heart.
maybe i'll find a new one in italy.
see you after that.

young&drunk

someone told me yesternight
that friendships aren't relationships.
i think he should re-think that.

boys are stupid.

throw rocks at them.

just a place i miss.

i've been working for a week. helping out at the local newspaper which is chaos&total madness right now. when two newspapers decide to come together no one should think it's gonna be easy. ever.

on thursday i'll find out what kind of interesting music classes i can take in the fall. music history, production, styles... it will be awesome.

on saturday my sis' is playing a small acoustic gig at after eight's fabulous bazaar, an artsy fair where artsy people get together. after that i will rush off to vasa where another café is trying to open. there will be a fundraising where we will show a couple of movies made recently. it's exciting even for me, i haven't even seen the finished version of the latest creation!

and theeeen - party time! i feel i have the right to party, and i will do it with the best. nothing can stop me now. i am young!

//youngster&hoodlum

"i'm not there"

you should see that movie whether or not you know bob dylan. you should see it whether or not you believe in the power of words or music. poetry, expression, caring about the people. you should see it.

i despise the seventh rule of hiding, even though it's true:

"never create anything. it will be misinterpreted. it will chain you and follow you for the rest of your life, and it will never change."



//"sleep is for dreamers."

interesting plot

nine days of shooting and i'm out of breath. partly because i'm tired and it never seemed to end, partly because i'm sad it ended so soon. this is our first production that i really felt went well. the crew was incredibly put together even though the early mornings and late nights wanted to get to us. the cast was a talented one, outgoing, and wonderful. i hope to only work with actors and actresses like these in the future.

teamwork is something i fall so hard for. the rhytm and flow a dozen humans can come up with using cameras, lights and each other. working with t as a cinematographer was difficult at times, like always, but the result of our nagging usually turns out great. i am proud of what we've done.

this is the kind of movie that is made to influence and inspire others to make better movies. this was a parody needed to be made. i am glad i did it with you. all of you.

she said: you must be really great friends.
i shook my head, and smiled. but i guess we are.

with love, peace and film,
alex.

the two brothers mettler

pierce & reed.

now i miss my brothers from overseas.

små, små gåvor

jag har ett nytt skrivbord som tydligen genomlevt en del. med på köpet kom ett kort.

"

Stockholm d. 27/1 -72

Hej Krister!
Tack för kortet från Mariehamns "City"! Vilken storresenär du plötsligt blev. Jag blev väldigt glad också över kort + hälsningar från Helsingfors.
Har ofta tänkt på dig och undrat hur du haft det. Nu hoppas jag - och det vet du nog säkert - att allt skall ordna sig för dig. (Har du skaffat dig en sparbanksbok förresten?...)
Jag har det ungefär som vanligt. Jag har fina kolleger och elever också för all del, men nog blir det påfrestande ofta att alltid anpassa sig efter vuxna elevers barnsliga krav och temperamentsfulla utbrott.
Många hälsningar
från Lola.

[Du är sällsynt!
Du förtjänar en sällsynt trevlig födelsedag också!]

Men tala bara om för mig när den inträffar!

PS. Parentesen får du inte uppfatta som tjat, den kanske verkar dum men är välment. DS."



På kortet finns också aningen malplacerade korta meddelanden som:

"Du har väl skaffat dig vettiga vinterkläder??"

och

"Tina mår fint och hoppar lika högt - med elegans - som förr."







Jag tror kortet för lycka med sig. Och jag som aldrig tyckt riktigt om katter.

//A.